I am so tired this morning. I can barely keep my eyes open. It didn't help that I had to wake up when it was still dark outside. I hate that feeling, in winter, when you get up in the dark and you come home in the dark and it feels like you might never see the sun again. Especially at the beginning, when the memories of the summer are still fresh in your mind and they seem a long way off from returning.
I feel like that spiritually at the moment, as well. A few months ago, everything was going swimmingly. I was on fire for God and we were doing amazing things together and it felt like we were unstoppable. And then it stopped. Not stopped altogether, but the deluge of great stuff has dried up a lot. Things just aren't running as smoothly as they were.
It's tempting to fear, when we're stuck in dark times, that the sun might never come back. What if it stays winter forever? What if I have to stay blundering about like this for the rest of my life? What if this is as good as it's ever going to get? Then we may as well give up now. If the problem you are struggling with will never be resolved, if the project you're working on will never be restored, what's the use in persevering?
But contrary to popular belief, that's not how are universe works. The planets spin and revolve around the sun at a more or less constant rate, and have been doing so for a very long time. Therefore it is reasonable to assume that they will continue to do so. Night will become day and winter will turn into summer. We just have to be patient.
Sometimes, waiting for God to answer our prayers is hard. Sometimes, we call out to him in the dead of night, and it is hard to trust that the morning will come. But it will. Our God does not disappoint and His love never fails.
In the words of Les Miserables,
Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise.
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