I don't feel like writing today. I only started back last week, but already I feel like I can't be bothered and it seems my inspiration has run dry. The easy and convenient solution is to assume God doesn't want me to bother today. But unfortunately I think he does.

It's annoying, really, that God doesn't always want what we want. Quite often we have a conversation that goes like this...

Me: Can I have that?

God: No.

Me: Please? I really, really want it.

God: No.

Me: What about that then?

God: Still no.

(Indefinite amount of time, stubbornness and repetition later...)

Me: Okay.

It can be hard to accept at times. I tend to argue quite a lot. I know I'm going to give in eventually, but I argue anyway. Sometimes I have to keep coming back to it and give it up again and again. But when I do, I often find the conversation ends like this...

(Sometimes straight away, but usually not for a while...)

God: How about this instead? Would you like this?

Me: YES. This is so much better than my idea. Why didn't I think of this?

God: Because you are not God.

Me: Oh. Yeah.

Because basically that's what it's really about in the end. He doesn't say no out of spite, or because he doesn't want us to be happy. He does it because he knows best. And because he loves us.

9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"

(Matthew 7:9-11)

11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosperyou and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

(Jeremiah 29:11)